me & you..now & always

i appreciate u..i cared bout u..i take good care of u..i never cheat on u..no matter how hard it is i never ever forget about u..all the memories we create together never fades away..if only i am the only one who feels that way i wouldn't care..all i know is i really "liked" u..i loved u..everything was true..its not an acting..i hope someday u realize my sincerity..happiness before marriage is not the one that i pursue..happiness after marriage is my goal..i will remember that forever..i will try to prove it someday..i will show it to you my sincerity towards you..up until now i still can put a smile on my face..but the agony & pain inside me cant be erased easily..i hope someday you will erase it for me..i know i am not the coolest, interesting, funny and good looking guy that always being chased by girls..i also don't want those things..better for me put myself on the ground..being low profile..all this while i repelled myself from falling in love with other flowers in the garden..because i can't even let go my feeling towards you..i can't even forget you..its been a hard time for me..everything i do i remembered you..everyday i look at your picture hoping that you will comeback..forget about the past and start it all over..i hope you understand my feelings towards you..i really want to ask a question for you..what did i do wrong? was it wrong that i really loved you? was it wrong that i appreciate u? do i need a reason to love you? isn't it nice that a person said that he loves you with no specific reason..and he loves you because it is "you" the loves that gifted not created..rather than a person said that he loves you because you are kind and beautiful..i know it sound silly..but it has a bit of useful meaning in it..i hope you will understand..it is my true real feeling toward you..right now i may not say that i loved you..i realize that i am not worthy to say "i love you" because we are not married couple yet..but i liked you more than an ordinary girlfriend..special girlfriend..i hid this feeling from you after "it" happen to us..i wouldn't dare to show it to you..all i know is everything i do is sincere..i do not ask for return..all i want is you to understand..not much i ask from you..just understand :') 

i promised i never let you down..i will never forget that.

and i just wanna be with you..only you.

for my lovely FROGGY

kitak, kamek sikda pikir pun kitak polah salah..eventhou kitak rasa kitak banyak nyakit ati kamek, all those things sik la nyakit ati kamek gilak sebenarnya..it hurts when kitak try to stay away from kamek with all those guilt..i promised before..and i hold it till end..kamek sik abu2..kamek akan remember and hold my promise until kamek tunaikan..bukan kamek lupak janji2 kamek dolok..it just that lom ada rezeki kamek mok tunaikan..someday i will..i need you to trust me..dont worry FROGGY..kamek akan jadi babo for kitak..only for kitak..kamek babo sebab kamek ikhlas polah sesuatu..kamek sikmok kitak pikir kamek someday kamek akan ungkit semuanya balit..NO!..i will neverever do that..thats why i act "babo" infront of kitak..just to prove that i will never akan do ngungkit2 ya..and kitak, kamek mok kitak always makes me smile like you did before..kamek rasa kitak always make my day brighter..that was special about kitak..you r very precious to me..remember that..precious..no lies..